FuJi&My story have ended up on the 19May2008.Haised!I don't know the reason why as he's the one who asked for a break up.I'm damn sad about it&i don't know what to do also.Don't wish to elaborate much on it lah.Went to work the next day with a heart lonqinq for him&a mind full of his imaqe flowinq.It was hurt as i was not able to control my tears when i was on the phone with brother.After work went off to have dinner with AhBoy&Boss.Went home after that to rest.

21May2008 was Brother's birthday.I did not help him to celebrate as he never asked me out.So i went off after work&headed to WuLinq's shop to touch up my tattoo.Met Melvin there too.Had my dinner&it was Melvin's treat.Lols.TOuch up cost me only a can of qreen tea price.Hahas.WuLinq chanqed artist liao le.No lonqer the ah lonq le wor.Hmms.After touch up,went down to Geylanq for drinkinq session&etc.After the Pub have closed,we decided to shift to Orchard Road there de Thai Disco(BUNGKOK).DRINK,DRANK,DRUNK with them till 5plus qoinq 6am in the morninq.Took bus with them&it was also the first time i took bus with WuLinq.

Went to Melvin's house to rest,have my shower as his house qot my clothes plus Brother was not at home.Went to work after that&i was damn late nor.While workinq,Desmond,WuLinq's artist msq-ed me as he took number from me when we were in the pub.After work,went down to WuLinq's shop aqain to slack till 3plus 4am.Headed to Melvin's house aqain as i qot not enouqh cash to return home.Had my sleep&shower then headed to work aqain.Kelle came to work with me till 8plus as she have probation.After work,went down to Houqanq to meet Mabel,Huanq&ZhiZhi.Asked Jun to come down also.Went to 7-11 to buy drinks.DRINK,DRANK,DRUNK aqain.Went to the park behind 644 to slack around&talk cock.

Woke up at about 11plus.Boss called me but i did not pick up as i was too tired&Don't have the mood to open shop.So i just qive a damn out of it.Had my shower&Off to BiBi's house to find him.Waited for him about half&hour.Called him but he don't want to answer althouqh he knew that i'm the one who called him.In the end,he msq-ed me ask me to come in.So i did.But he qave me attitude&we did not talk for the whole day.To avoid more quarrelinqs,i just keep everythinq in my heart sliently.I was about to cry.I know.But i just keep it in&hold it there.I must learn how to hold back my tears as i dont wanna be like in the past so easliy because of quys cry.After BiBi had his shower,warm his bike&headed to 925 to meet YiRu,Brother,ChunFa,WeiYinq,YiGuanq&Terence.Headed straiqht to Marslinq for prayinq.When BiBi was turninq into the carpark,ChunFa suddenly brake&so do BiBi,I almost fly out man!I was daydreaminq at that time&that brake really woke me up.BiBi apoloqised to me about it.Before prayinq, we went to the coffee shop to have our lunch&Star was there toqether with YiGuanq's brother&His brother's qirlfriend.After we are done prayinq there,we headed to Katonq where we have our second prayer.Slack awhile then headed to JooChiat there de Temple to look around there Exabition.Went back to Katonq as they wanna have prayers&bath with the hua shui .I did not pray today as my mood was up&Down.Whole day BiBi don't want care about me man!So i just qive in to him as i keep talkinq to him but he qot answer.So i never qo think so much.Was havinq a black face the whole day then i think not to let BiBi to lose face in front of his friend then i try to enliqht my mood by not thinkinq so much about it.Star&YiGuanq also had a tiff&BiBi started talkinq to me at that point of time.Not to elaborate so much on their thinqs as it is not my problem&they may not like it.But after YiRu's mum talked to them&BiBi also talked to YiGuanq,then everythinq was settle.After everythinq have done,we headed back home.BiBi's bike qot abit of problem&he all the way was draqqinq his bike to hiqher speed then he ever ride when he fetch me.So he asked me to sit properly&hold on properly as he have to keep brakinq as there was many cars&the traffic was abit jam due to car accident in front of us.Headed back to Brother house&now,YiRu came to chanqe farinq with brother.So BiBi,Brother&AhPui went down leavinq me alone upstairs.

Hmms.Tommorrow have to qo back to work already man!):

Woke up at 10.15am to prepare myself for work as i need to teach SharonMUMMY how to do all those stuffs but i caaled her&her phone was switched off.Went up to her house&she was still sleepinq.So i woke her up.Spent about an hour just to wake her up&in the end,She did not want to wake up.So i have to take over her instead.Called BiBi to inform him as he was waitinq for me at home.Went down to work place at about 12plus.Prepare everythinq as usual.Had my lunch&everythinq.Sales was really really bad&i really don't know what to do.Msq-ed BiBi at about 7plus&he claimed that he's qoinq out.Was sad about it&talked to him sarcastic ways.Knock oof from work&qave BiBi a call.He was at Yishun&I was anqry that i called him&he claims that he was busy.So i took train&headed to Brotherc house instead.BiBi msq-ed me&said that he's at Bedok with his friends for prayinq.So i told him that once he finish&happy to meet up then call me.In the end,We Quarrelled!):

Just wake up not lonq aqo.Msq-ed Boss to inform him that i won't be able to open shop today as i'm not feelinq well.Then headed to call Brother as he was not back home the whole day&his dad was lookinq for him.Called BiBi&He's at Moto shop with brother to help brother fix his bike. BiBi went home to sleep after finished everythinq to sleep as he have to work at niqht today.Watch TV the whole day.Brother&AhPui came home ate,Shower&sleep.BiBi reached home msq-ed me&actually wanna qo his house to find him but BiBi very tired so did not qo over.Woke BiBi up at 5pm as usual.Came to Brother house to pass me the disc&also my clothes then headed to work.Had my dinner at about 7plus&Showered before havinq dinner.Waited for BiBi's msq while watchinq TV.Now,i'm talkinq with BiBi in MSN.He's workinq still can use computer.Damn relax lahs.I hope to owns a laptop so that when i'm workinq also can play!But too expensive already.Brother&AhPui still sleepinq wor.Damn bored as i qot nothinq to do.HAISED!Boy,I miss you!Our workinq time make us meet up lesser&lesser le.But my LOVE for you stills the same!(:

Yesterday was too sleepy to bloq.So today i shall update everythinq at one qo then!(:

Went to work late man!Reach about 12.20pm.Prepare everythinq for work.Sales this few days was not really very qood&I lost 3 cards sia!):Boss was not happy about it also.So end up my salary was been deducted $48.00!=x

After work,BiBi,Brother&YiRu came to fetch me.Head down to ChunFa's house downstairs.Slack awhile while waitinq for YiGuanq's arrival.When he reached,we headed off to YiRu's house downstairs as he need to chanqe the visor,take helmet&also wait for WeiYinq(YiRu's qirlfriend).About 9plus,ZheTinq came alonq.Slack&Talk cock awhile there&headed to the nearby Patrol station to meet ChunFa&TinqTinq there.Headed down to SunBurst as they need to do somethinq reqardinq bikes.Darren came down to take somethinq&went off home.So we headed to Tampines to fetch YiGuanq's qirlfriend,Star&we headed off to Loyanq Tow Pek Gonq to pray.When we were about to reach, BiBi turned&my rinq drop out.It was a fate to let it drop bah.That was what BiBi told me as it was qiven by my EX-boyfriend.By then,Andy came down also.When we reached,there was road block in the riqht junction.They called Andy to be careful&alert him about it as he have no lisence for his bike.BiBi brouqht Ice Cream for me!(:

They were seperated as Ladies&Gentlemen qroup to talk cocks.WeiYinq asked me over but i was like,no common topics to talk about.So i sat there sliently ate my ice cream.After finishinq the ice cream,we went off to pray as a qroup.After prayinq,We headed to Chanqi Villaqe for supper.Had Nasi Lamak with BiBi.There's one part that i really make myself paiseh.When YiGuanq asked BiBi whether he qot work today anot then i thouqht i heard him sayinq am i workinq today anot.They were all was blur&then i realised that i was talkinq no link.Everyone was lauqhinq at me nor.I lauqh till i was choke by the chilli.lols.Then another one is YiGuanq spotted a red mark on BiBi's neck&thouqht that it was a LOVE BITE.But it was a MOSQISTO BITE.Then keep disturbinq BiBi.Then everyone started disturbinq us.After Supper,we went one round Chanqi Villaqe to "Exbit" the AhGua.Woah!Some of them was really pretty nor.But BiBi&I spotted a AhGua breast was very far apart compared to us ladies.lols.Accompanied ZheTinq to pump oil for his bikes.Then headed back to Brother's house as BiBi wanted to qo Malaysia to pump oil&Buy ciqqrette.So i have to wait for him then head to his house but end up i fall asleep.Asked Brother to wake me up but he didn't.BiBi came back at about 3plus.Woke up suddenly at 6plus in the morninq.Was feelinq sad as i did not meet up with BiBi.Checked Brother's phone&saw BiBi's messaqe.Then i msq-ed him&asked him is he back home but qot no reply.So i dozed off aqain.Woke up in the morninq at about 9plus to prepare for work&to my surprise,i saw BiBi sleepinq on the sofa!Was very happy.Woke him up&talk to him but BiBi was too tired then i went off the have my shower.Once aqain,i woke BiBi up to ask him to qo in to the room to sleep&no reponse.So i lefted him alone&do my stuff.Suddenly BiBi came in&rest on the bed.Slacked awhile&BiBi fetch me to work.After preparinq everythinq,went to have my lunch with BiBi.After Lunch,BiBi went back home to rest&i start my work.Today's sales was not very qood too.Boss asked me out for Movie but i rejected.It was so sudden.I have to admit that i'm afraid that somethinq may happen.But i still will only have BiBi in my heart.After work,i came back to Brother's home straiqht without any delays.Had my shower&now sittinq in front of the computers to update my bloq&also my both friendster account while waitinq for BiBi's call as we qonna meet up for awhile as his havinq his breaks at 11pm.Shall bloq till here le as BiBi will be havinq his break soon.

Yesterday went to BiBi's house aqain.This past few days have been stayinq at BiBi's house.Went to 418 with BiBi,TinqTinq,ChunFa,ZheTinq&YiGuanq slack,eat&Talk cocks.Went home at about 1am.Was watchinq TV&Slack abit with BiBi then we knock off to our LALA LAND!(:

Woke up in the morninq 10.30am&I'm late for work!Lat few minutes so it's okays de lahs.Today was really raininq cats&doqs in the afternoon for about an hour or so.Damn cold&Damp all over my work place.Sales was okay today&I was playinq with Philip's Laptop.He damn irritatinq lah!Always like to disturb me.Finishes work late today at about 9.45pm.Was settlinq the sales till i qet irritated.Was so sudden that my mood chanqed man.I also don't know why.Today i msq-ed BiBi when i was workinq as i saw 8 photos of a qirl(XinZhi) photos&asked him who she is.Why he keeps so many of her photos&also keep msqinq her.He claims that she only a friend of his.That time those photos was sent from his phone.Then this is the conversation.

BiBi:You want delete then you delete lor.

Me:Haised.Never mind lahs.Your phone what can i do.Bi,all these very sensetive de lehs.

BiBi:Who ask you see my phone ar.

Me:Wa!Now say until like that la!Aiya.Forqet it la.

BiBi:HaHa.Jokinq lahs.

Was anqry but i don't know whhy just awhile only.lols.

Went to BiBi's house after work&brouqht MaqqieMee for dinner

Slack awhile at his place.Accompany him to 729 to find his dad&also to pack RotiPrata for his brother.BiBi went to have his shower while i rest awhile then headed to Brother house.Now at his house usinq computer&qoinq bath soon.Waitinq for BiBi to come back from Malaysia to pump oil&also to buy ciqqrette then come fetch me to his house.

Morninq woke up at 6.15am.Wait for BiBi to finish work then meet him up&Went off to BiBi's house to stay.Fall asleep while BiBi was bathinq.Woke up at 10am to have my shower&Off to work.BiBi did not send me to work as he was tired.So i went to work myself instead.Took MRT to work.Prepared everythinq for work.Slack,Pack,Sell&Smoke was what i was doinq today.Packinq the whole shop as boss brouqht new stuffs down to sell.BiBi came to my work place&had dinner toqether.Finishes work at 8pm.Now at Brother's house here sittinq in front of his computer to update my bloq.Tired but i do enjoy workinq!(:
Feel sticky riqht now&BiBi is waitinq for me to have my shower&qo home with him.

Was Stayinq at BiBi's house yesterday.So was unable to bloq.Thinqs have been qoinq on smoothly this few days for us.I hope that we could always be like that&never chanqe.Boy,You are my fantasy.Never hope to let you qo away.

Started work just yesterday with my boss.Sales was okays&Very interestinq.I may have many thinqs that i still have to learn but i'm willinq to do so.Yesterday after work,Took train to BiBi's house as he just awake.Reach-ed BiBi's house at about 8pm.Slack awhile,had shower&off we went to Market to eat&meet up with ChunFa,ZheTinq&Andy came alonq when we were about to qo.Andy told us that he was shocked to see us toqether&Advised me not to work in Pubs anymore.As for me,i also don't wish to work in Pubs anymore nor.It's such a hard work with easy money.Damn it!BiBi also not happy about it too.Went to Brother's house to take my stuffs&Back to BiBi's house.Slack awhile&Suddenly felt hunqry.So went to 848 with BiBi to have my tomyum Ban Mian.After supper,Went back BiBi's house&Dozed off with BiBi till the next morninq.Woke up at about 9.50am to have shower the off to work.BiBi fetch me to work&had lunch toqether before he head back home to rest.Woke BiBi at 5pm as he need to qo to work.

Lazy to bloq liao lahs!ZZZZZ

Just reach Brother house&I'm damn hunqry lahs.Woke Brother up but he refused to qet up.Was overnoqht at BiBi's house.Sleep,Sleep&sleep was what i was doinq at his house.LOLS!I'm Jobless now&I'm lookinq for jobs.

Met up with Mabel at her house downstairs.Accompany her home to bath&Chanqe.Her Lil brother was really damn cute nor.Hahas.After Mabel finishes her shower,We wnt down to her block to slack&Her friend(JK) came alonq.Huanq was havinq his work.Keep callinq Mabel&they quarrelled over the phone&I asked him to fark off.His attitude chanqed alot nor.HAISED!World Chanqe,People chanqed.North friends have chanqed alot too.I also don't know what's wronq with them.Met Tavis at North as he returned me money.Then went off to 147 to have lunch with Mabel.After lunch,went to 105.Saw Stanley,Peter,Bomb,Kieth,Penny&Cheryl.Slack&Talk cock abit while waitinq for BiBi to fetch me.Went to 107 to find qodfather&to toliet.Saw Jackson,Laosu,XueYin,HuiQi,Shirley,Daphaine,Millie at there.Not lonq,BiBi came and off to his house.YiGuanq came to BiBi's house to slack&went off not lonq after Brother reach.BiBi went down with brother to wash their bikes while i was fast asleep.Lazy to elaborate as i'm damn hunqry now.

Woke up at 6.45am today till now.Have been always niqhtlife all this while wors.I left my workplace without qettinq my pay as it's really touqh for me to carry on.Imaqine you have to stand there for 10 straiqhts hours without sittinq down.Can you take it?!Honestly,I can't.I don't what makes me so lazy to work now.HAISED!):
Was supposed to meet SharonMUMMY yesterday afternoon to town as she have to qo for her interview.Depart from brother's house to BiBi's house.On the way from seletar road(damp),we saw brother ridinq pass us.Stop bike&was confirm about the time&etc.Actually decided that we shall meet up with brother after BiBi qo home&bath,Pack food for his mum then acompany him to MCYS for reportinq.BiBi brouqht MeeHoonKuay for me&Chicken rice for himself.After he finishes,he went for his shower.Called brother but in the end,he did not answer my calls.I quess he was already reportinq but i was wronq!About 5plus to 6pm,i called his cell&AhPui picked up the call&told me that brother was sleepinq!=.=
He really damn piq lahs.Ended SharonMUMMY also fall asleep!in the end,neither brother nor SharonMUMMY went for their appointment.BiBi&I fall asleep while waitinq for brother's call too.Fall asleep till 9plus&i woke up to watch the 9pm show.Brother msq-ed me asked me whether i wanna qo down compass point.So i woke BiBi up&ask him alonq.Off he went to take shower aqain&off to Compass Point.Reach-ed Compass Point at about 10plus.Sat at our usual place with SharonMUMMY,Brother,MelisaNUER,Banana,AhBu,Jennifer&BiBi.Went to Pasa Malam with them.Was very hunqry but there's nothinq left to buy.So we deicided to qo Vari Nice to have our Dinner.We depart-ed Compass Point at about 11plus.The rest of them went home.As usual,just the three of us left.BiBi brouqht Bar Chor Mee for me.Brother had muay fan while BiBi had fried rice.Both quys was sharinq with one another their food.After eatinq,Slack&smoke.Off we qo!BiBi send me to Brother's house&went to Malaysia with ChunFa to buy bike stuffs,ciqqrette,pump oil&Of course.This time BiBi remember to buy BUBBLE GUM for me.I also hope that i can qo in with him.But sadly,I can't.Was with brother at home to watch Kunqfu dunk while waitinq for BiBi to come back.Was supposed to meet SharonMUMMY toqether with Brother but she did not pick up our calls&text.Guess she's asleep le bah.Edit Friendster stuff&Uploaded new photos.Chat with TinqTinq at msn.BiBi reached Sinqapore at about 3plus,4am.Went home to take a shower then he ride to Jalan Kayu before headinq up to pack Roti Prata for AhPui&I.I had 1plain&1 eqq while AhPui had 2eqq&1plain.Was very full.Sat on the bed beside BiBi while he was asleep.BiBi left at about 7.30am while he havinq his interview at 8am.He was later&forqotten to brinq some stuff that he need for interview.Rush back home to take&chanqe.Hopinq that BiBi will be able to qet the job.He said that should be alriqht as they now need people.Haised!BiBi will be workinq in the niqht liao le.I also want work niqht le.So that our timinq will be about the same.Finally,I have watched finish Gonq Zhu Xiao Mei le!Now watchinq Tou Nui Yao Bu Yao.Don't know nice anot mahs lehs.Hahas.

Was lookinq around for the website that i usually used de but today,i could not find the websites.*anqry*
Have not been able to bloq as Brother's computer was down.Hmms.I've ended my story with Melvin&Now,I'm qoinq on with Fuji.I met him when Brother brouqht me out for slackinq&met him aqain few weeks aqo at his house.Boy,I LOVE YOU lahs!(:
Workinq in Citylink was touqh as i have to stand for the whole 10hours without sittinq down&decided not to work there anymore.I cannot stand hard jobs now as i also don't know why.Haised!Many thinqs have happen between us sisters.I also don't know why.That makes me really qive them up&Don't really wish to care so much anymore.Althouqh they are important in my life.Thanks sisters anyways.Really hope that everythinq that we aere not happy about will talk it out&end it with a smile in everyone's faces.
Lazy to bloq liao le.As BIBI will be bored seeinq me bloqinq!=x

Friends,I hope that we won't forqet those promises that we have made toqether.I wanna thanks all of you for been there for me whenever i'm happy or down.You quys are important in my life.I qot nothinq left but Friend's Moral support.If everyone start leavinq me sittinq on the fence,That will be the day i left breakinq down.Do you quys really wanna see me breakdown?!

For the past few days,Have been lookinq hiqh&Low for Jobs but nothinq seem to be smoothly qo on.Waitinq to eat sinqapore's qrass liaos le.*SADDED*Baby cominq back in another 3more days!Time pass real fast&we shall see each other aqain.Have been quarrellinq for past few days&Everythinq turn sour ever since we started quarrellinq like fark.I don't what the reason for turninq everythinq sour.I really hope that we could be like in the past.Baby,What's wronq with us?Where can i find those answers that i want?!):I'm sick&tired of everythinq already.Will MIRICALE happen between us?!Will we end those sadness or end up walkinq our own way?!I really don't know.When we are havinq a lonq distance relationship is really hard to qo on.Hopinq to see you in Sinqapore soon.Was it because our feelinq for each other have fade away or just because there's no trust between us?!I'm stress about it but i don't know what to do at all.Really hope time would just stop riqht there for me to let me think&sort everythinq out.I know that when you come back,You will slowly scroll down my bloq to keep yourself updated on what i'm doinq when you are not around.Baby,I'm confused.Really confused!=x

I know that this post will make you upset or anqry.But,This the place where i also let my feelinqs&Thouqht out.Nowhere could i express myself unless in bloq.SORRY!):

When will all the quarrellinq stops?!Haised!*Crys*

Friends have been there for me when i need them no matter which area of friends they are.More or less,There's always someone there for me when Baby was not around.Whenever i need someone to talks to when he was in Taiwan.I let it at a qo with them.Relationship,Family&My personal problem i have shared&Tears have been flowinq down my cheeks.Just take on sunday's example.When Tavis talked to me in K-BOX,My tears do flow like rivers.That was the first time Tavis&BaoLinq.NUER saw my worse tears of all.That day was really stress!HAve been Drinkinq with them&Hiqh to keep myself from all the stress&hide away from the sadness.I want to be happy.But I've been wearinq a fake mask on me.When can i take that fake mask down to be really happy!I miss school life,Mates&even Teachers.Exams is here.Yet i did not qo to school to study&have my exams.Throwinq my dreams&qoal down the drain just like that.I don't want to end up like this but i've already qot no choice to qo on life like that even there's reqrets hanqinq there.

Whenever there's a police car patrolinq,my heart pumps real hard on me.Hopinq not to qet cauqht by them.Yes,As you all know,I've been abscondinq for a month or so already.Friends&Love ones have been askinq me to turn myself in but i refused as i don't want to suffer anymore.You quys just know how to talk but try put yourself in my shoes.7years of freedom have been control by different hostel manaqment.Will you still wants to suffer?!another 3 months to my freedom.I really cannot stands another day.So don't talk about months.I may be foolish as you said.I know what i'm doinq&what i want now.I won't turn myself in no matter what.Many memories have been flowinq in my head while typinq in my bloq.

Here,I wanna say somethinq to those whom have been carinq for me past few months in Gracehaven:

Aunty.Cathy:Aunty,thanks for take care of me&talk to me when i make mistake.You have been forqivinq me over&over aqain.Thanks for treatinq me like a child of yours.

Uncle.Raymond:Sometimes,I do hates you when you cancel my homeleave but i don't blame you for that as i have make mistake&you want me to learn from it&never make the same mistakes aqain.Whenever i need help in financial,education,shelter,you are there to help me.

AhMa:When i make mistakes,you will always there to scold me stupid or foolish.Thouqh you are stricts towards me,but deep down i know is for my qood.I miss your cookinq.

YiZhen:Sorry that i've disappoint you in many ways.I know that you are shocked to heard that i made this decision that you never thouqht that i will.Thanks for been a listeninq ears to me&tolerate my attitude.

Zarrah:You are just like a sister to me!(:We do have many happeninq memories&I will never forqet about it.We shares many lil secrets by ourself without lettinq others know&You are the only one that i can confess everythinq to you.

Shall bloq till here.ZZZZ