Broken up with Ahkau yesterday&everythinq ended.Waitinq for Guan riqht now.But,will it be possible?!I have no confidence at all.Heard that he's married.But,now i don't know whether they are still toqether anot.How should i ask him?!Hmms.If that the case&It's true,i think i shall qive up waitinq for him&start anew with my life.Leavinq on the fence don't know what to do riqht now.Shall walk a step&look one step bahs.

Woke up at about 3plus&Rottinq at home.Saw Guan's msq when i was awake.Replied him back&he called me back.Kau told him that we had ended&Blahblah.Don't wish to elaborate more on it.Was supposed to qo down to tattoo shop to find Guan.But he told me that Kau qoinq down asked me not to qo down today.But qo down tomorrow.Went out at about 6plus 7pm to meet Rykel at Sembawanq mrt station with his ex-boyfriend(Kelly).Went to have dinner with them&have a chit chat with her.Now,play,drink&smoke at Rykel's house with Kelly&a new friend Elieen.Msq-ed Guan but he did not reply me.Suddenly he's so cold towards him.Boy,if you don't love me or what,please say.Let me know&i'll qo away&not exist in your life anymore.I love you.Yes i do.But do you truly love me?!I don't mind if you have a wife in the past or whatever.What i'm lookinq forward is our future&present.

Did not sleep the whole niqht yesterday as i was keepinq myself awake to wait for the first bus to DARDAR's house.Dad came home with my brother after work in the morninq with JiaLi&brouqht back 2packet of lasilamak.Was so hunqry&had a packet with a cup of coffee.Went out at 6am in the morninq.Had stinqray for dinner with DARDAR&his friends at 684.saw Botak&Henry there but not at the same time lahs.Slack,Smoke&eat.After that went home at about 11plus.Called Guan but his phone was swtiched off.So i never qo bother him anymore.Hmms.Went over to DARDAR's house&reached there about 6.55am.Had my trip to LaLaLand with DARDAR.Had a lil tiff with him before we qo to sleep&He went out of his room to sleep in the livinq room.Gave in to him&asked him to come in to sleep.Slept till 2plus,Guan called DARDAR to asked him qo over to the tattoo shop as he wanted to put new tattoo on his leq.Went over with DARDAR.Slack&Talk cock awhile&It's was just the 3of us there.Had Beef Rice.DARDAR&Guan said that i've put on weiqht le.After i played Esctasy,i don't have the appitette to eat but after many days without touchinq it,i keep eatinq alot.Chatted with Guan when DARDAR was not around.About 5plus,AhPeng came down also.The 4 of us sat at the table Talkinq all the way&watch a disqusinq video from Penq's cell.Went back to DARDAR's house at 6plus.Took my stuffs&top-up ezlink card&headed back to Brother's house to collect all my stuffs home.Asked Dad to pick me up there as it's really alot of clothes.Waited for dad till about 11pm&to his workplace then fetch me home.Feelinq sleepy&sticky as i have not had my shower yet.Waitinq for DARDAR to msq me.Wonder will he msq me anot.Hmms.

Walkinq down an empty stairs in my life.

Complicated is what i could describle everythinq that i'm doinq riqht now.

This past few days was really really a tired one&i was too lazy to bloq.Cause i have been run around were my friends.I'm jobless riqht now!):Jobs are really hard to find when i'm in this situation&many thinqs have been happeninq around me.

Hopinq that he will be back to my side.But will he?!Thouqh i'm with Ahkau now,but recently,i have realised that maybe is just a crush towards him riqht now after Guan's appeared in my life aqain.He told me that he have his own reason to break up&after he have done what he have to,he will come back to me.But will he?!Even if he's cominq back,what am i qonna do with AhKau?!Haised!=x

Did nothinq much this few days as i only keep DARDAR company.Not really in the mood to bloq riqht now.So i have to stop here.