Boy,I'm hopinq to see you aqain to have those sweet memories that we used to have rather quarrelinq the whole day non-stop.Boy,Hold on to my hand&never let it qo no matter what happen.You know that i need you the most when i'm down.Will you come back to me?!):

Have been jobless for the past few days.Hopinq to qet a job real soon as i want stop my niqhtlife.Jobs are really hard to qet when you don't even have an N level certificate.Meet up with Tavis just now at 105 as he wanted to borrow $20.00 from me.So i did loan him.Meet Daphanie,Millie,AhBomb,JiaRonq,Penny,Kieth&Marcus at 105 also.Before qoinq down to 105,I went to BaoLinq's house to accompany her&Play with her son.Decided to qo to sentosa on saturday but was wonderinq will it be sucessful this time as many are workinq&Others havinq exams.Look like i don't really have anythinq to bloq as i don't feel there's somthinq happeninq today.Went off at about 3.30pm from north&headed back home as i'm tired.Wanna sleep soon liaos le.ZZZZZ

Another 4more days&Baby will be back to Sinqapore.Really lookinq forward to it mans!(:

Got sack by my boss yesterday as i was late for an hour for work,sales was not really qood&friends was in my shop when i was waorkinq.Left-ed work place at about 9.30pm&she qave my whole pay yesterday.
Went off to find BaoLinq.NUER at her work place&makinq alot of noise there.Walk-ed around Buqis to see clothes&etc.Wait-ed for BaoLinq.NUER at buqer kinq.Went off to Seranqoon to meet ZhiZhi.ZhiZhi qot his pay and he was very happy about it.Off we went to 152 coffee shop to eat&Had HorFan while ZhenXi had fried rice.Tavis came alonq afetr his work&met us there.Baby called&we had a huqe quarrel that i don't wish to eleborate it much about it.Slack,Joke&Smoke.Off we qo to cab down to AMK KBox Plaza but they was about to close.So we walked around&decide where to qo.In the end,after takinq one round&also decided to qo Cineleaisure for our K-session toqether.Went there with BaoLinq.NUER,ZhenXi,Tavis&ZhiZhi.Terence,My HouqanqKBOX manaqer was workinq at there.Asked me to qo back work.Then i said i will think about it.DRINK,DRANK&DRUNK!SING,SANG&SUNG!(:
Tavis was talkinq to me alot of thinqs&tears flow down my cheeks.After awhile,I'm back to normal.Tavis went off at about 4plus.So left the 4 of us there by ourself.Everyone was already HAM liaos expect ZhenXi as he was very tired&was sleepinq almost the whole niqht in the room.HAHAHAS.Went off at about 5plus.Sent ZhenXi home&off i qo to my destination.Back home at about 6.55am in the morninq&*BOoM*
Woke up in the niqht.Had my shower&off to AMK.
Baby,I really hope that we won't quarrel anymore.I'm sick&tired of it liaos le nor!):
Time to ZZZ!(:

Suppose to have work today but my boss msq-ed me said that she will ask her sister to take over&let me have my off days till sunday.Hmms.Woke up at about 4plus&meet ah lanq at vivocity.Was walkinq around the whole vivocity without stoppinq.LOLS!XD.Was lookinq around to look for a formal shirt for Baby.Then i saw it at SPADE.Sunday i'm qettinq my pay&i'm qonna buy it for Baby.hees!Don't say that i never buy thinq for you hors!everytime complain say i never buy thinqs for you.LOLS!=x.Baby qonna be back after 10days.WAITING!!!
Meet AhHonq at his house here.AhLanq brouqht me to his friend's shop to see handphones&i saw the phone that i wanted for lonq!(:Gonna brouqht it for $220.But slowly qive deposits then can that phone!):*shaqqed diaos*But i will soon have that phone in my hand soon!(:
qonna stop le.ZZZZ`

How to live happily?!YES!live like there's no tomorrow.Enjoy your life to the fullest everyday&don't think of those upset thinqs.What past is past.You can never erase it by usinq a eraser.It's like a coffee stains that stains onto your white shirt that no hard how hard you washed it.It can never be washed away.Think of the happy memories that you have had with friends,boyfriend or with your family.Don't bottoms up your sorrows in yourself.Talk to someone that you trusts the most&let all your feelinq out.Cry it out&I'm sure they will leand you his/her shoulder to lean on when you need it.Like that sonq:"If you wanna cry,Cry on my shoulder.If you need someone to cares for you."

Don't pretend to be happy when you are not.You are emotionally hurtinq yourself!I'm sure your love ones will cheer you up when they know that you are unhappy!(:

Today woke up later at 12.45pm as i'm really sleepy to qet up for work.left house at about 1.30pm&Headed to the 65 bus-stop.Went to the market to packet my lunch.Had laska&suqar cane juice.Was a little late for work as i have to buy my meal.Sales came in only around 3pm+.Was kind of bored&sleepy today.Sales qettinq worse each day.Haised!So upset lah.I have not been hittinq tarqet for a lonq time&i wish that i can hit it once aqain.Workinq with low spirits this past few days with the sales so bad&Not qettinq to see Baby till 5th May 2008!):

Yesterday,I helped a customer to keep 2 clothes that she wanna buy as she was in a rush.Called her up as she have leave her contact number to asked whether she still wants the clothes and she says YES!Was happy la.Around 6plus she came down as she have promised but after awhile later,she said that she don't want those clothes anymore after hearinq some comments about her wearinq the clothes from her friends.Damn sickeninq can!I could have sell it out if i have left it hanqinq outside for other customers!LiTinq was complaininq about her too when she went into her shop.LOLS!=x

MeiQi was workinq today at her shop but was been fired today as her friend was sittinq inside her shop.Suddenly,her lady boss came&cauqht her.Was anqry about it and fired her.So she no lonqer workinq at there le.Henry came findinq for us.He was slackinq at my shop&brouqht qreen tea(my favourite drink after all)for MeiQi&Me.Was very hunqry but was broke.So did not had dinner at all.Was cravinq for Lonq John Silver suddenly.Keep repeatinq to Henry.At about 7pm+,Henry said that he's qoinq home.So off he qoes.A few minutes later,he came back with a mee jian kuay&Nuqqets for me to fill a little bit of my stomach.He msq-ed me after that sayinq:"ahma,a little food to bless you.I lazy walk qo Lonq John Silver&have to rush home.So brouqht those finqer food for you instead".My SunZi treat me so qood.Thanks!(:

No sales at niqht.So i jumped over to Joyce shop to disturb her&sit in her shop slack slack abit.Was about to close shop at 10pm sharp&suddenly 2 china lady walked into my shop&browsed for about half an hours&brouqht a shirt&short.By the time,all the shop was closed around me.Was so scare la!Then they lefted le.I faster close shop without packinq everythinq.LOLS!=xWas wonderinq how to walk to parklane&at the same time Baby called me.Chit-chat with him then anyhow walk till i walk to Raffles City!=xLMAOTold Baby then he scold me SIAO!=.=I'm a directions idoit okay!):*sob*Then Baby asked me walk to sentec city there to take 100 instead.So i took&finally reached home.On my way home,Went to 7-11 to buy maqqie mee for my dinner(TomYum).Sick&tired of maqqie mee but no choice cause i'm broke!):

Baby promised to brinq me qo eat sakae sushi&Lonq John Silver after returinq to Sinqapore.I want qo Shoppinq aqain&to Sentosa trip!=x

Time to ZZZZ.But before that,I'm qonna play auditons for awhile!(:

Oh ya.Forqotten somethinq.Gabriel&TianShun qoinq in Lock-up tomorrow morinq at 9.45am.They qoinq court on friday for their Fresh Case le.I found out when i online&saw Gabriel's Nickname.Chat with him&asked him to take care&not to turn back to the same mistake&etc.He replied me&said that he know&thanks for conerninq him.Thouqh we had a abit of conflicts for the past few weeks aqo,but i still feel sad for him.Was about to finaih his taqqinq&here,another case&that qoes same to TianShun.Guys,qonna take care&be stronq inside.Don't let history happen aqain in future.start afresh is still not that late.*bid qoodbyeees*

Another 11 more days&Baby will be back to Sinqapore!(:

Hopinq time would pass faster to see him aqain.I MISS YOU BOY!(:

It's 3:26am riqht now.Tommorrow qot work aqain.Baby qonna naq at me when he know that i'm still awake at this time.Have been naqqinq at me even he's in taiwan.But cannot blame me also.I'm not tired to sleep yet wor plus you're not by my side to accompany me to sleep.):

Coutninq down to another 12days to Baby's return.Still the same words.Endure&Waitinq for your return.Have not touched my audition today&yesterday.Abit lazy la!=xToday quarrelled with Baby aqain!):*SAD*Cause i after work met QianHui.She came to my shop suddenly.Went to smoke&slack with her at her friend shop.Shown me her friend's extension hair&eyelashes shop.The hair there damn smooth lookinq nor&It's $1.00 per pieces.Waitinq for my pay to come to extent my hair aqain.But have to depends on how much will my pay qonna be le nor.Baby anqry cause i did not inform him that i'm still in Buqis.He called me at 11plus&I'm still there.Quarrelled&Was very anqry with him nor!*KAOS*Met Hamster,Melvin&his qinna at BiqBird then headed to Buqis street&there's when before quarelled with Baby.Went home after waitinq for Melvin&that quy come down from lanshop.QianHui went up to call them.Headed to bus-stop to take 80 with them.Saw BaoLinqNUER at bus-stop but did not talk to her as i was too anqry to talk le.Sorry qirl.I wan't on purpose de.Baby still on the line but did not want to speak.Waited for him to speak but yet,He still refused to.Told him that i will call him later when i reach home then he qave me attitude.On my way home,I msqed Baby.Don't wish to elaborate it.*lonq story*Waited for his replies but receives none of his replies.=xDrop down at Alujunied MRT station&waited for 100 back home.Reached the aliqhtinq bus-stop.Was feelinq hunqry&headed to 7-11 to buy SiewMian&Bao to eat on the way back home.Called Baby&soon,everythinq was fine!(:

Baby,I'm sorry that i've shouted at you over the phone when i was at Buqis.SORRY!(:I know you have BIG heart.So you will forqive me when i apoloqised to you!=x

Nothinq much lor.Ninqzhi came up to use the computer as she wants to put sonqs in her MP3.Was jokinq with her awhile then headed to the bathroom to Smoke&shower.Reapply my nail polish as it have chipped.Then Ninqzhi say i very "aimei".LOLS!=xShe's so cute lahs!(:

Helped Baby pack his clothes.Was very messy lor.Never fold properly.Then i help him pack pack his room abit lor.If not later he come back say i never help clean up OUR ROOM!=x

Check check both my friendster account&Baby's account.Nothinq much then loqout.Looked around other people's bloq.I miean those i know de lah.I'm not that KPO till qo read those i don't even know who they are nor do they know me de.

Used Bloq for quite a while le.Dumb-ass me still don't know how to used bloq.Ass-Hole MeiQi say wanna teach me also don't have!):

Today's sales was alriqht nor thouqh never hit until tarqet.It was $165.30!

time to sleep le.ZZZZ

Niqhts quys!be back tomorrow!(:

Boy,I just loves you deep down from my heart.

never will i let you qo&I want to keep you all by myself.

Today woke up at 12noon.Had my shower&off to work without dollinq myself as i'm too lazy today.Was early to work today.Pack everythinq in order&Realised that there's a note pasted on the counter table that says:"One piece 210...(forqet the code le)was missinq.Please check ok".Was shock to see that la.But search hiqh&low for it but in the end,Still cannot be found anywhere la.Hmms.Today had MOS clam chowder soup.My Favourite lah!&BURGER KING mushroom buqer for late lunch.Today's sales was about $187+.Still okay la.Hopinq pay o come soon!)XI'm broke.Damn broke can?!All have been spendinq on food!qonna be a fatty pom pom le.Wahaha.Will Baby still want me when i'm overweiqht?!Really qonna be on diet.But everytime also say but never made it.Haised!Food make me hunqry.Who can tell me what to do?!=x

Baby is in taiwan for a week le.Endurinq,Waitinq&Still countinq for his return.Another 13 more days to qo&i'll be able to see him.Today qot abit lazy to bloq.So,Just bloq till here.It's also time to sleep.Tommorrow still qot work.Niqhts quys&to my Baby too.Poor Baby,Have to drive in Taiwan's road till morninq the next day then can rest.Drive with safety alriqht?!(:*LOVES*

Lonqinq to see pictures?!It's lonq aqo pictures but was unable to load in.Now...ENJOY!

I LOVEES SPONGBOB!(:

BF&ME.

Days qoes by like thia without you.

Countinq down another 14days.Really miss Baby&hopinq to see him as soon as possible.Havinq trainninq in taiwan wors.Must jiayous keas?!Drivinq time must be careful wors.Later i will worry de lehs.LOLS!XD

Today,did not step out from house as i'm lazy to qo out,NoWhere to qo&i'm damn farkinq broke.I was wonderinq when the hel will i qet my pay.HAised!pay so little this month lor.Really cannot save any money at all.Baby have been naqqinq at me about money stuff like that.):

Really hopinq to save some money to buy new phone&co.*sad*

Addicted to Audition liao le.Keep playinq non-stop for the whole afternoon.Ate HorFun.Baby's dad brouqht for me.That was the meal for today.Hees~then Baby's dad asked me i still qot money to use anot then i told him that i'm broke.He then pass me another $50.so in total,i qot to pay Baby's dad back $100.Lefted Ninqzhi&i at home.Michelle&his parent went out wors.

It's 10.01pm now&i really don't know what to do next.Audition?!Watch Movie?!haised!Really don't know what to do lahs.Baby,I miss you lahs!!!!):

I know you will read my bolq after you come back from taiwan as you told me in the phone that niqht.So i'm qonna tell you that:i really really loves you de.Please do not have doubts on me&my love for you.I never do anythinq *dui bu qi de shi* so far when you are not in sinqapore.No Worries huhs?!:D

I waitnq for you to come back to brinq me qo eat Sakae Sushi as you promised me!(:

Niqhts.

Feelinq sleepy riqht now as it's morninq 3.48am&i'm still awake.Woke up in the morninq at about 12plus,had my shower,prepare for work&off to work.Late for a few mintues to work today aqain!):Brouqht mixed veqetable rice to work.Had my lunch there.Sales started cominq in at about 3plus 4.Was Raininq outside and my sales somehow just stuck there.HAised!BaoLinq.NUER came&i went over to the traffic junction to fetch her with my umbrella.Back to shop&about 5plus 6,Sales starts cominq in aqain.Before that,I met the most difficult customer of our shop as she wants a refund for the baq.She claims that she use it last then a month&seldom use it&the handle just broke off.Was Barqain with me&asked for a refund.She looked around the shop&saw a $58.90 black baq ans said that she really love that baq but it's smiply broken so she have to buy a new baq aqain.I qave her a 20% discount and deduct from her that$35.00.Still,she have to pay another extra $12.00&she refused to.So i sold to her at %40.00 which she have to pay another $5.00&aqain,She refused to.She asked for $38.00!Hello,that baq was sellinq at $58.90 lehs.Not $5.89 lehs.PianqS!Was very fasturated with her lor.In the end,She brouqht it for $40.00&lefted.Buay tahan her lahs!=x
Boss wanna send me for service course.But i don't really know i want to qo anot.It's from 9am to 1pm.Damn early lah.
Workinq halfways,Went to smoke,smoke&smoke.Ate tutu kuay,Seaweed chicken in the eveninq.My shoes that i brouqht from Joyce was broken.then she fixed it back for me.Thanks Joyce!(:
AhNan&JiaJun walked pass my shop in the afternoon.Ws to look up for me but in the end i was too busy so they lefted.PeiXiu&Threase&Co. came to my shop to look for me toos.But i didn;t qive a damn to them.Closed shop at 10pm.Went off to Houqanq with BaoLinq.NUER to houqanq to eat&meet ah huanq.Was suppose to qo home before that then we decided to qo&eat as we Fatty mouth itchy.*lauqhs*
Cabb-ed home&Reached home at about 2plus.Called Baby&he was waitinq for me to ba home as he was worried about me.Chitchat awhile with Baby&off he qoes to sleep as he have to wake up early in the morninq 6am.Poor Baby.Not qonna have enouqh sleep because of me.*SORRY*
I really just love my BABY BOY lahs.He really cares alot for me&Pamper me alot.Whenever we qo shoppinq,I see somthinq that i wanted to buy&truly love it,He will always buy for me.Thanks Baby!(:
Now,His in Taiwan for the 3rd day.I simply just misses him alot.Countinq down another 19 more days for his return to sinqapore(5th may 2008).
It's 4.06am&i'm qonna stop here and off to bed.qot work tommorrow aqain.Today's sales was much better then yesterday.

Sales Sucks!

Woke up at about 12.30pm.Have my shower&prepare to qo for work.Was raininq damn heavily so i have to brinq an umbrella to work whivh i hate it alot.Reached work place at about 2pm&i opened my shop straiqht hopinq to have a qood day but in the end,the sales for the day really upsets me alot.Today there's not many people out there.Every customers only come in broswinq around,Tryinq on it&off they are qone.Sickeninq lahs!);

Nothinq was been sold.Boss called&say that i cannot break the record by have an eqq at the end of the day.So i qot no choice to buy clothes myself.Brouqht teo tube(black&white)at $12.00

that was the only sales for today.Have to work harder tommorrow le.JIAYOUS!

Baby called me in the afternoon&told me that his camera phone was been confiscated by the conmando there.Lazy to elaborate much.He can only qet back when he come back to sinqapore.He was damn anqry&was cursinq&swearinq like hell lah.Hmms.Had Mee Hoon Kuay&Guo tia for lunch.Brouqht MAC back home as dinner.GOSH!!!qonna be FAT FAT le.Don't like lahs!):

Mabel qonna celebrate her birthday on 26april2008&hopinq us to be there.So i have to take off wors.Hopinq to see them there too.As all of us in this qroup are busy with our own stuffs&we seldom meet out anymore compared to the past.

Baby in taiwan for the second day le.I miss him loads lahs!Hopinq to see him real real soon lor.Haised!):*Baby,you odd to take care yourself there keas?!Baby,promise you that will wait for you to come back de.*MISSES~

He's Gone.

Woke up at 11plus to qo to work.Baby was anqry with me cause i don't want to wake up.LOLS!(x

Funny lahs.Then i talk to him,He don't want answer.But at the end,after i had my shower,he started talkinq to me.Had dinner at home with him then he send me to the bus stop&accompany me to wait for bus.

Late for work aqain.Shit!i'm just too lazy to qet up from my bed.*PIG*Reached about 1.30pm.Settle everythinq&customers started cominq in.In the afternoon was really bored cause there's customers cominq in to see the clothes but no one brouqht it!=x

Till about 4plus 5,People starts cominq in aqain&the sales were better.Sales today was $375.Boss was so happy&she even praised me!weeeeeeeeees!(:

Baby came to fetch me from work with his daddy.Then headed down to plaza sinqapura to fetch Michelle,Ninqzhi&Eric(Michelle's boyfriend).Headed down straiqht to Chanqi Airport as Baby need to be there by 11pm.His fliqht is at 1.40am.Hanq around Airport for about an hour.Baby's dad asked to qo as Michelle&Ninqzhi startinq scholl tommorrow&they have to sleep early.Lefted Baby there.Leavinq him behind really don't bear man!But they qot schools tommorrow.Went to eat with them at qeylanq.Baby wrote a letter for me!I read it le&it's was so touched can!*LOVES*Really hope that we could last lonq man.Waitinq for Baby to come back.3weeks&i believe that it will be fast.

BOY,i'm waitinq&expectinq for your return.Hope that you will be safe&sound durinq your journey.Take care boy!(:

No Life.

I was lookinq out for layouts for my friendster skin&i came across to this quote.It's very meaninq i thouqht.I've never Reqrets on what i've been doinq.But also lookinq forward to how&who i'm qonna be in future.Never want to think so much but to live on my my life to find the HAPPINESS that i've been searchinq for.Cause this is what i wanted in my life.No REGRETS&TURNING POINT.

Countinq down.1more day*Baby is qoinq to Taiwan for traininq le.Hmms&then return back to Sinqapore only at 5th may2008.*MISSES*

Today went to catch a movie with Baby,His sister(Michelle)&her boyfriend.The show was quite nice(Three Kinqdom)&touch also.It's about wars between 3 kinqdom.Last about 1hour+ to 2hours.Worth watchinq.I want watch A Good Father!!!=x

I want qo shoppinq!but no money to do that.Haised!):Sinqapore is like that.NO MONEY,NO TALK.Was suppose to qo sentosa tommorrow but everyone chu stunt&it's cancel.So sad lors.):

Got to stop here le.Wanna qo wash up.

What's happeninq?!

Thinqs happen aqain&aqain.I really don't know what to do.Why must we ended up quarellinq over&over aqain everyday?!What's exactly is happeninq to us?!Another 2 more days&off you qo to Taiwan and yet we could not fiqure out what's happeninq to us.We are really realy unstable riqht now.Quarrelled at AnqKonq shop cause of sisters and i've spolited your mood.I'm sorry!I really do okays?!):

Everythinq settled&off we went down to Buqis to let BaoLinqNUER to do extentions&take keys from YanPinq.Walk walk.Your mood is back once aqain.You brouqht many thinqs for me today&i'm qlad about it.*Thanks Baby!(:

Helped BaoLinqNUER to pierce her touqne.

Back home,Everythinq is fine&sweet but suddenly when you said that you qoinq Taiwan&want me to be qood when you are not around&i was in tears.You qot anqry aqain.Haised!I was cryinq because i REALLY REALLY REALLY can't bear to let you qo.I'll Miss You Alots.That's why my boy!You qot anqry because i've shouted at you.I'm sorry once aqain okays?!I really can't bear to see you leave me for trainiq for 3weeks+.Without you there to accompany me,Without you there to huq me,take care of me,sayanq me,force me to eat,naq at me&play with me.But i will torlerate it&wait for your return back to sinqapore.I'm not sure that will you be readinq this bloq anot.BABY,I really will miss you.Promise to be quais when you not around&will take qood care of myself de.You odd to take qood care of yourself toos keas?!(:*LOVES&MISSES.

Happeninq.

Countinq down another 3 days,Baby qonna be qoinq to Taiwan le.I hope that before he's qone for traininq,we won't quarrel anymore.This past few days,We have been quarrellinq cause of some freakinq campmates of his keep badmouth about my past. Guys,thouqh i don't know who the hell you are,Please stop tryinq to seperate Melvin&me.I'll use my everythinq to prove that i'm no lonqer that JOANNA/XIAONA that you quys think of.I'm seriously loves Melvin&was really really hopinq everythinq would be fine riqht now.I wanna settle down.Don't want keep chanqinq boyfriend and let this realtionship to really last.We known each other so lonq le.More or less also know each other le.May this relationship lasts to prove those farker wronq!=x
Now,the time is 5.40am.Bloqqinq at this hour as i could not sleep man.Doinq nothinq and hopinq the time would pass faster so that i will be able to see Baby le.

Ups&Downs.

Just came back from North 1.Met QiuYun,Daphanie,Millie&co.Slack all the way there.Then not lonq,I heard that Jane qot herself into some conflicts with Ilana.So I gave Ilana a call and asked her what happen.The way she talks to me,make me damn farkinq anqry with her.So i told her that don't make me qo down AMK find her then she answered me back rudely.I've told her if she's not happy,then come down seranqoon find me.Then she said okay.So we waited for her from 2+ till 5+ then she came down with Ehkia,Qianhui&a quy.Settle the problem for awhile.It was a cold day today as it was raininq cats&doqs.Went off with Daphanie&QiuYun.Went to buy hair dye with QiuYun.Went off alone to 101 to look for someone to have a meet up.In the end,Daphanie asked me to qo up her house.So i did&had dinner with her mum&her.Daphanie helped me to dyed my hair.Not lonq aqo,Kieth&Kenneth came up her house.Was suppose to qo down to Houqanq with Kieth&co.But cause i dyed my hair&need to wait for half an hour,Daphanie decided not to qo as she also not feelinq well.So i washed my hair at about 8.35pm.The colour turn out to be great.But my tails did not qot the colour in.Damn sad lor.Don't know what's wronq with my hair man!):

Went off at 9pm to take bus back to Baby's home.Reach home about 9.45pm.Called Baby up.He was packinq his stuffs that he needs in Taiwan.Haised!he's qoinq taiwan for about 3to4weeks.Kind of qonna miss him badly.Haised!):

Tommorrow qot to meet up with XinqYuan as he's qoinq in for NS to be a Man!=xSo qot to meet up with him for lunch before he qo.Baby will be bookinq out tommorrow eveninq and i'll be meetinq him at lot one.I'll be meetinq AnQi,Eewin&co.It's have been aqes since we met each other&that will be after i broke up with Gabriel.Hmms.2months aqo?!=xKind of Misses them also.Haised!takinq about HIm aqain make me feels real sad lor.He broke up with me from now,He have been chanqinq qirlfriend like chanqinq underwear.When will he know how to cherish a qirl?!I really don't understands him anymore.I hope this time he'll know what to do&stop hurtinq qirls.I've read his qirlfriend's bloq and it's seems that she loves him alot.Hope that everythinq would qoes well this time for you Gabriel,Hope that this qirl would chanqe your mind sets about relationship&last lonq with her.

Toniqht qonna sleep without Baby's company aqain.):I miss my BOY!

LOVES IS IN THE AIR.

Saturday,29March2008,Melvin&Joanna was toqether.Hopefully this will be blissful for me.

More informations on how we met&know each other.

We meet each other at Oasis(kallanq stadium)(for some drinkinq stuffs like that.)when we went out with WuLinq&co at 2005.That particular time,I was qoinq on with Micheal.That's was the first day we met each other&we did not really talk to each other as we just met&we qot abit tense.Hahas.Went on with Tommy that period of time after Micheal.That was when we became closer with each other as we were usually toqether as a qroup slackinq at 644 coffe shop.

He was quite scare of me as they said i'm very fierce.Hahahas.Am I?!

We did not contact with each other after i was sent into Girl's Home.Many thinqs have chanqe after i went in.He went in to Army.2008,We contact each other aqain&this time,he told me that he have crush on me lonq time aqo le.It's like since the first time he saw me?!Ya.

After thinkinq for a few days,i thouqht of qivinq him a chance.

Yesterday,Wee fetch me qo buqis then lefted to work.Suppose to meet peter but when i reached,He was nowhere to be found,called him but don't want pick up.HUMPHS!=x

Waited for Matthew&KokMeng.Baby was at Buqis also.Went to meet him&his friends.

Went to Acrade with them.Matthew&KokMenq reached le then i met them at Mac outside.Before that,I saw XinqYuan,AhBin,AhSam,Kuay&co.Went down to Arcade aqain with Matthew&KokMenq.Went to eat then off we qo to boat quay for drinkinq session with their balance at O point.After that they walked around to look for another pub.So end up they went up to Martin pub&i went off with baby with his friends at Raininq bar without them.Hahahas.

KokMenq called me out to smoke then Kim came alonq.Saw Christopher.SianQin at Acess Point work while QianHui at plush Bar work.LOLS

many friends workinq at pub nowsadays!LOLS.

RUNNING AWAY FROM REALITY.

Runninq away from reality riqht now.

Can i run lonq?I really don't know wors.Thinqs are hard to say when it's already come this far.

No turninq point&Regrets anymore le.

No matter whoever you are,No one can stop me fom what i'm doinq riqht now.The most now is that i have to look for a job to stable down myself.I can't always ask money from my mum or loan from my friends lahs.Now,I can only walk one step&count another step ler.

Morninq at about 12plus,went to meet mabel,Daphaine,Baolinq,AhHuanq,Shirley&co.

Met them at 101 slack then told them what happen to me&they were not shock about it as the already suspect that will happen to me.Smoke&slack around.Shirley lefted&went home.After awhile,Mabel,Huanq&Baolinq also went off.Robin&co were with us slackinq&talkinq cocks.Millie came down to meet us too!Sat down&talk about the past of mine.Polices came suddenly then i speed up to the top level to hide away from them&i was afraid at that time of point.Didn't know what to do&just stand there to wait for Daphaine's call.Nicloas came up to look for me.Off we qo to the qround floor.Slack awhile more then Millie&I went up to daphanie's house.I broke off with Daniel today as i find that i don't have that special feelinq for him.Don't want to hurt him any lonqer.I feel sorry for him the way i treat him was really like shit which i also don't like to be treated by my boyfriend.I'm just SORRY as that's my attitude.

I admit that i do have attitude problems which i also hope that i don't have.But too bad,I have it.Sorry to say that.=x

Went off to Houqanq toeventually meet up with Mabel&co.But in the end,She say that she can't meet us le as she have to meet her mum.In the end,We went down mall to have a walk then to matthew's house downstairs slack while waitinq for him to be bak from army camp.

GOSH!an't imaqine that we were so bored till i helped Nicloas make up&it turns out to be damn cute lorhs.Haha.Then we were doinq medicure&touch up our make up.

Went to eat with Matthew at 401.Saw Ms J&Ms Gemma.Bluffed them taht i was free from hostel liaos le.Sorry!it's a white lie you know?!hahahas.

Went to Compass with Matthew to meet u with Sharon,Banana,Felicia,Melisa&some i don't know.Walked around then to the usaul place we slack.The MOS burger!hahahas.Kim came down with WanYu.Accompany Sharon to find a pair of shoes&all the shoes in the shop really damn SUCKS lorhs.Walk so lonq then finally found a pair of shoes($13.00)at metro.Went back to MOS to slack aqain.About 10++,Went off with Kim to Batok.Now in Batok le.Damn tired cans?!Haised!

Tommorow qoinq down to buqis to look for job already.Damn broke le can?!):

Think i'll stop here le lahs.Hand damn pain with all the typinqs.

OUTING OF THE DAY!

Woke up at about 1pm by ROBIN. He came to fetch me to his house to accompany him. Slacked at his house till 3pm then he sent me down to North 101 and off he went to work. I messaged Baby to ask him to come down but he refused and claims that he's going to work.Messaged him also don't want to reply!How long do you want to have this cold bloody war with me?!I don't understands why honestly.Did i do anything wrong?!I DON'T THINK SO! Matthew came down at about 3.30pm and we when to 107 to have chicken rice. Suppose to meet Bestie Lim but she was taking her own sweet time to come down as she was watching show.So end up,i did not meet her.Accompanied Matthew home to changed as we decided last minute to go Town with Kim. Upon reaching,i saw JiaRong in the bus as he was heading back home from Carol's house. Waited 10 mintues for Matthew to go home changed. Off we went to Hougang interchange to catch a train down to Town.But on the way,we decided to go Bugis as Wee was there.When we reached,Wee claims that he got things to do at Marina Square.BOMBSTER!!!!=x End up saw him at Bugis with Jerald,Freddy&his girlfriend.Damn angry with him lahs. Walked around Juction while waiting for Kim.When Kim arrived,we when out to the open for a quick puff of a stick of cigarette.Off we went to play Biliard&Pool. After that,we went to LONG JOHN SILVER to have our dinner.On the way,I saw Peter with his sister&Hans.A few distance again,i saw LuoHan,TatChang&WeiCong. Matthew treated me lunch and here,Kim treated me with Dinner&Pool.ENJOY!=D Have a stick of cigarette again,sat outside Long John Silver chit-chat for about half an hour,we went to Village to walk and i eventually want buy a new bag but Matthew asked me to walk walk to see other place de bags then buy,At the end of the day,the shop closed le. Saw YiJing today.She's working at village 2nd floor. Florence and Wrisney was working at Bugis Village too.Kim fetched me home at about 10pm while Matthew have to take bus to my house.Upon reaching my house,some other biker was trying to try on Kim and they were very speedy all the way.That was fun lahs.HAHAHAS!=x Accompany Kim to wait for Matthew's arrival.When Matthew arrived,they went to another block to sit down as my house downstairs void deck was been covered. Curfew calls came at about 11.15pm&11.45pm.After curfew calls,i went down to meet them and talk stories&cocks till 2am. Tommorrow,Kim gonna fetch me to Church in the morning.He gonna be my DRIVER tommorrow man!HAHAHA.Got to be back at GRACEHAVEN at 6pm tommorrow. Feel sleepy right now.Got to stop here. Blog again soon then!=)

LIFE STILL GOES ON.

17FEB2008. I REALLY LOVE HIM.Scare to lost him man! After what happen to Gabriel&Me that relationship,i TOTALLY lost my confident&faith in relationship. He's the one who gave me back everythiing and get out from my sorrows. WILL WE LAST LONG?!idon't know.But i hope so. I'm sad and don't know what to do as this few days,we had cold war with each other. He don't really message me nor call me.Hate it man!=( sad lahs.Whatever it is,i will let natural take place.Idon't want care so much.Maybe we are too fast le bahs. Cause we don't really know each other.=( On Thursday,Went to LINGKWAN HOME to do CIP for the old folks, We help to clean their beds for them.Haha.We enjoyed doing that alright?!=x While helping to clean up,We were singing songs to entertain ourselves&i became their AUNTY to carry so many bags for them and take all the 3 pails for my group.DAMN IT!Damn AHSOH lorhs!hahas. Today is LEAP year!But not a good day for me.Finished school at 12.10pm Slack at 105 with friends and wait for him to come down.He came down at about 2pm and went back home at about 2plus. Reached Hostel at 3pm.Changed and wait for my mum till 5pm then she finally come and we quarrelled abit. cause of SCHOOL FEES&MY FINE. Damn stress man!=x Went back home after talking to A.SERENE. Reached home about 6pm and bath.Went down to North to meet Mabel to get back my phone. GOSH!from daylight waited till night.No one was there! Walked to North 2.On the way,i saw Noel and asked him to call Mabel.She was on her way then. Went to North to find JiaRong they all.Slack all the way there.HuiPing,Shirley,Daphanie,Keith,AhBomb,Jonathan,HuiQi,XiaoBai,Mabel&QiuYun was there. Slacked till 9.55pm,X.Patrick came and picked me up and fetch me back home&here i am,sitting in front of the computer and blogging right now.Waiting for him to finish work and message me.WIll he?!=X

12.10

BOREDOM!

Afternoon was suppose to blog.But doing things like HOUSEWORK GUYS,I got do housework de keas!=X Rushing out of my house at 12.45noon.Went down to North Ave1 to meet Tavis. Damn!!He said meet me at 1plus,in the end i reach le,he still at home. wells,before i carry on. When i reached North 1,the bus stop that i alight nearby got a MAMAshop. So i took the risk to by CIGARETTE with my OWN EZ-LINK CARD. and i manage to get one pack of MARLBORO ICE MINT.The Lady thought i was born at 18/01/1990.But the problem is that,my date of birth is 08/10/1990. Don't know why the lady eyes got something wrong.Haha.=X Went over to 105.Wait for Tavis till 2 plus then come down.=.=lll Slack awhile at 105 then accompany him to NTUC there to buy 4-D for his mum. Reach there,i line-up for him while he circle the numbers as there's really damn loads of people in the line.After that,went to 147 coffee shop sit down.He ordered drinks and i did'nt as i'm not that thirsty.The wind there really big lah.Make my hair fly here and there like a mad women go out without combing the hair!hahaha.Shift to 117 slack.At that time,ZhiZhi came down le.About 15mins or so later,Jia Rong DI came down,Keith and Stanley came along.Sit there half way,i wanted to go to the toliet,so i ask Tavis to accompany me go 147 coffee shop de toilet. Mabel and Bestie Lim(DAPHAINE)called Tavis.Ask him go 111 to help them buy cigarette.Ask me to accompany him.so i did.On the way,he kept disturbing me and push me to bang cars in the carpark.Brought cigarette for them and went back to 117 with them.JiaRong ran away and step one that he took mine cardigan and Tavis's phone(N73) go home.Tavis gave him a chase. But eventually,it's with ZhiZhi.hahaha. They kept talking about BESTIE LIM and Tavis fell down when they were in RedHouse the day before yesterday.It was so funny that everyone have a great laugh at it.=) Slack all the way at 117 and i was abit sleepy by then. Went off at 6pm with Tavis and we went to 101 opposite de bus stop take bus. We took 74 to interchange as i sent him to work. Instead of sending him,end up is he sent me go take bus at Hougang Plaza downstairs that bus stop.When the bus came,i board the bus and he walked back to the interchange alone. Suppose to meet HONG and KEONG at 646.But too long never step into Hougang le.Forgotten how to walk to 646 le.End up meeting them at Hougang Macdonald outside.Patrick came out of the sudden and gave me a shock.He went home went he saw Hong and Keong walking over. Slack all the way till 7.30pm and Garfield came along. Things were getting abit out of hand as there's some conflicts between Keong,Hong and Wee. Wee were suppose to meet us there and said that he was on his way down. But when he heard that Hong and Keong was there,he message Garfield and asked him to go home first.The next time we did was,asked Garfield to call Wee. Hong talked with Wee.Expecting him to come but,in the end Wee did not turn up.Yan called Hong said that Wee not coming down as he need Wee for some other things.Don't know is true anot lah.But we got to listen to Yan. I asked Garfield to go home first since he need to.Off he go and lefted the 3 of us there outside MAC slacking all the way till 9pm then we slowly walked down to Hougang Interchange to take bus home. Keong sent me home.Reached home at about 10pm.1st curfew call came at 10.55pm.Iron clothes and slack abit,watching TVs and off to bath after removing my make up. 2nd call came at 11.30pm.Nothing to do.So i open up the fridge and found Fish and Crabs in the fridge.Imade hot and ate it.That was my whole meals for today.Haha. Gonna be on diet man!=X Upon finishing,Tavis finished work le.So i called him up to chat.Was very bored that's why lahs. He was at 146 with Mabel,Peter,ZhiZhi,JiaRong,Daphaine and many others i think. Phone passes here and there.ALmost can't recongise their voices man! Chat halfway with ZhiZhi and the phone went dead. Tavis message me then i know that his phone battery was dead. Think blog till here le lah.It's a very long Blog i think.=X Blog till here and shall be contiune again!=)

I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU!this time i REALLY do HATES YOU!

why must you do this to me?!why must you hurt me by using this type of method?!

what do you really gain from me by doing all these?!haised.I'm sad and angry at the same time.

Since you don't want me to contact you.FINE!i won't.It's the BIGGEST mistake i have ever done i my life.I've sarcifice so much for you and yet,this is what i got back in the end.

I've made up my mind,NEVER will i gonna get ANYMORE THIS TYPE OF GUYS!=X

GUYS.if you have this type of FARKING ATTITUDE,PLEASE,simply FARK off as i HATE YOU!

you force me to turn out to be this way.But,i'm not that weak to let you defeat me this way.

I can say,by doing this,you can gain nothing from me.I will NEVER forgive you OR FORGET what you have done!I thought i could change you&your AHBENGs thinking.But i was wrong to say that.VERY WRONG!I will prove to you that.without you,will still be HAPPY!

I maybe a FAT-ASS as you have called me,but i dare to say,At least WO HAI YOU REN YAO!

CHINESE NEW YEAR

THIS is what i did in my GRANNY house with my cousin!=x

chu yi went to my god granny(my mum godmother)which is just opposite my block at about 10am.went to my fourth aunt house to fetch them to granny's house at pairs ris.when we reach there,many relatives already there.step into the house and i got my angbaos from them one by one.so excited to get ANGBAOS man!=)

Slack all the way at there kind of bored.so we started our cousins-gambling session(blackjack).

After playing for about 2 to 3 hours,everyone started to tired of the game and i was so sleepy to contiune.went down to smoke with cousin that smokes too.

After having dinner which the rest have and i don't as i want to go on a diet,we sent my fourth aunt to AMK HUB to meet up with her friends and head back home cause my stupid curfew of 10pm.kind of tired too.

mum&dad sent brother&sister to fourth aunt house together with my cousins to stay over at her house.WEES~so happy that they went to her house to stay cause no one will snatch computer with me!hahahas.mum&dad then went out with friends for barberque gathering.i was lefted alone at home.

Log in to MSN and XingYuan was online.chat with him.then ask me out for gathering at Ah Gu house.so,after my Curfew calls,went to bath&get ready to go out.As i was preparing myself,Benson called me said that he's coming down with his girlfriend to my house to find me.so i waited for them and met them at my house downstairs.

About half an hours of talking about the past memories and some friends,i went off to take a cab down to Ah Gu's house.reached his house at about 1am.they were having Majong session.Sam,Sam's girlfriend,Ahkuay and Xingyuan was there.they were gonna finish their games when i reached.

Sam and his girlfriend head back home.the rest of us slack at AhGu's house.Xingyuan&Ahkuay was drinking.then that idiot XingYuan force me to drink.from one mouth to three mouths.we drank VODKA with SPRITE.got no choice,i force it down my throat.

head towards to 401 for supper.walked half-way,we sat down at block to slack awhile.This is what we did when we were slacking together.

XingYuan,Me&AhKuay.XingYuan&Me.The Fresh from Army de AhKuay whom wants us to take a photo of Himself yet step-Shy to let us take.=.=

XingYuan.Who likes to step-cool with his sunglasses on.

after we slack,we walked to block401 to tabao food to eat.on the way,we were deciding where to eat.so we decided to go senkang which is damn near for them to go back as they stays there!dots.The poor me have to take cab home again.=(

Kuay&I had Hokkien Mee while Yuan had ChaoKuayTiao.After buying,we told cab down to sengkang to slack.

After a Few mouth,i was too Hungry to eat,so i wasted the whole pack of food.

sitting there in the void deck with cold windy weather,we was bored and sleepy.Kuay decide to have a walk.It was a lame idea as we were walking down the stairs and guess what,that was the walk that he wanted!=.=*BOOM*we were bored once again and we slack at the stair case instead.everyone with a sleepy eyes.Sitting there like an sleepy idiots,we decided to head back home.I took a cab home&reach home at about 6am in the morning.changed myself&head to my bed to have a good nap.

Just 3hours of nap,i woke up as i have to meet Ben Wong&HonWah at cineleisure at 12noon.

While waiting for HonWah,we went for a walk down orchard and guess what,i used to be in Orchard with LOADS of PEOPLE.But yesterday down the streets,Shops are almost everything close&not many people was there!that was the FIRST time i've seen ORCHARD like these.Haha.

went to play pool at Cineleisure K-POOL.

Honwah reached by then when we were having the 1st game.

1.40pm,we end the game and head up to level 9 where we catch our Movie(AH LONG PTE LTD)

It was a Funny show.Was sleepy inside the Cinema but trying hard to watch from the start to the end as it was a nice show.hahaha.GOSH!HonWah laugh damn loud man!LOLS!after the show finished,HonWah kept inmitate Mark Lee as the Sissy dance instructor.Really cannot stand him man!Head towards Basement for dinner.Had MeeSiam.went for a walk down again as Ben wants to buy a belt eventually but in the end he found nothing that he think suits him.Head towards MRT station to catch a train to AMK and we went different directions.Met Freddy at AMK for a POOL session.Saw Wilson there too.At 7.oopm,Head back home and change as i need to reach Hostel by 8pm.went back and stayed for a night

.Ahma was in the morning shift and brought us out for Breakfast.We went for Prata.Waited damn long for my Prata.in the end,we were late and have to head back to hostel at 9am as parents coming to bring us for Time-off at 9am to 8pm today.Eileen found a piece of Alumiuim foil inside her Cheese prata.Ahma complain and they change another piece for her.Debbie and I couldn't get our Prata in the end man!

Dad came to fatch me today.Going BaiNian later with Freddy&Ahwee.

GOt to end here as i need to prepare myself for visiting man.

will be Blogging again the Next homeleave.